这个年代当然已经过去。偶尔听到BEYOND的歌会轻轻勾起昔日的回忆：默默陪我走过青涩中学时代，给我鼓励激荡的好歌。
收到妮给我的『BEYOND 25th Anniversary』，有一种久违了的感动。哈。还记得人生中第一个买的专辑是『BEYOND光辉岁月十五年』，不知不觉就过了十年。十年来，BEYOND三子、BEYOND fans、我，各自经历了不少事吧。
只想靠两手，向理想挥手。
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
BEYOND 25th Anniversary
中学时期第一个哈的明星/乐队就是BEYOND。一首《海阔天空》吸引了我，在我婆妈的个性注入一点潇洒。以前没什么钱买不起CD，就收集卡带。（想听一首歌要打带打很久。〕多数朋友喜欢四个人的BEYOND，而我觉得自家驹离世后，三子抱着坚持原创的理念，下来的作品都不错。那时候就积极收集一切关于BEYOND的资讯，看到有附送BEYOND海报的偶像杂志就买。好友们也会帮忙剪报，然后一切排好好放进clear folder，三不五时拿出来欣赏。
这个年代当然已经过去。偶尔听到BEYOND的歌会轻轻勾起昔日的回忆：默默陪我走过青涩中学时代，给我鼓励激荡的好歌。
收到妮给我的『BEYOND 25th Anniversary』，有一种久违了的感动。哈。还记得人生中第一个买的专辑是『BEYOND光辉岁月十五年』，不知不觉就过了十年。十年来，BEYOND三子、BEYOND fans、我，各自经历了不少事吧。
只想靠两手，向理想挥手。
这个年代当然已经过去。偶尔听到BEYOND的歌会轻轻勾起昔日的回忆：默默陪我走过青涩中学时代，给我鼓励激荡的好歌。
收到妮给我的『BEYOND 25th Anniversary』，有一种久违了的感动。哈。还记得人生中第一个买的专辑是『BEYOND光辉岁月十五年』，不知不觉就过了十年。十年来，BEYOND三子、BEYOND fans、我，各自经历了不少事吧。
只想靠两手，向理想挥手。
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
讲道理？
前几天收到理大佛学会寄来的convo night邀请卡，打开以前在佛学会沉浸的记忆。说真的很惭愧，从佛学会获益良多，但没有为她付出些什么。
参加佛学会、学佛是我一生中做过最对的决定。常说在大专学佛是最幸福的，师父的引导、学长的提醒、同行善友的鼓励都不缺。毕业后，若没自己用心发心，也没人能管得着了。
看着邀请卡上熟悉的字眼：为了佛法、为了众生，在我心中猛然一敲：我，现在的生活中，好像没有与法相应了。昨天才与妈妈有些不愉快。还记得当时选择回家乡工作的原因是想多陪家人，可以的话把佛法带回家。常说若要接引家人学佛，首先要让家人体会到自己的成长。佛法究竟好在哪里，在我们身上可以感觉到。现在的我有做到吗？
糟糕，赶快把心静下来。“事实上，所有我们期待的，都是头脑一厢情愿制造出来的，本来就和现实的无常与变幻无法一致，但是我们总会执着要现实符合我们头脑的需求，如果不符合，我们就解释为不如意或不顺，而忽略了因果业力和无常的法则，痛苦及烦恼就因此生起。”《你和佛陀之间，只隔着一条线》
回想起与妈妈的小小纠纷，当时觉得妈妈蛮不讲理，动不动就骂人。过后自己也不认输，提高声量，就是要讲到我没错才行。当时的心态是要讲服人，以致理直气壮，咄咄逼人。过后才开始有些后悔，想道歉但不想让妈妈觉得她一点错也没有。每一次就是这样恶性循环。
如果当时能保持明觉的心，就能体会到妈妈这样的处事方式是有因有缘的，我不能一味要求她改变。当时她起嗔心也是有因缘的，我自己选择以嗔心应对，是我本身修养不够。其实还有很多更好的处理方式，只是当时的心来不及觉照嗔心已起，就让一贯的习性都跑出来撒野。道理都懂，也很会讲，但就是那么后知后觉，自己不够用心，可想而知。
本来认为自己与佛法渐行渐远，很惭愧，但懂得反省，还有救吧。赶紧忆念三宝：要学习佛陀的智慧与慈悲，要在生活中与法相应，要感恩帮助我提升的善知识。也不一定得先知先觉，但求正知正觉。对生我养我的妈妈，是不必讲什么道理的。道理，也不是说说就罢。
参加佛学会、学佛是我一生中做过最对的决定。常说在大专学佛是最幸福的，师父的引导、学长的提醒、同行善友的鼓励都不缺。毕业后，若没自己用心发心，也没人能管得着了。
看着邀请卡上熟悉的字眼：为了佛法、为了众生，在我心中猛然一敲：我，现在的生活中，好像没有与法相应了。昨天才与妈妈有些不愉快。还记得当时选择回家乡工作的原因是想多陪家人，可以的话把佛法带回家。常说若要接引家人学佛，首先要让家人体会到自己的成长。佛法究竟好在哪里，在我们身上可以感觉到。现在的我有做到吗？
糟糕，赶快把心静下来。“事实上，所有我们期待的，都是头脑一厢情愿制造出来的，本来就和现实的无常与变幻无法一致，但是我们总会执着要现实符合我们头脑的需求，如果不符合，我们就解释为不如意或不顺，而忽略了因果业力和无常的法则，痛苦及烦恼就因此生起。”《你和佛陀之间，只隔着一条线》
回想起与妈妈的小小纠纷，当时觉得妈妈蛮不讲理，动不动就骂人。过后自己也不认输，提高声量，就是要讲到我没错才行。当时的心态是要讲服人，以致理直气壮，咄咄逼人。过后才开始有些后悔，想道歉但不想让妈妈觉得她一点错也没有。每一次就是这样恶性循环。
如果当时能保持明觉的心，就能体会到妈妈这样的处事方式是有因有缘的，我不能一味要求她改变。当时她起嗔心也是有因缘的，我自己选择以嗔心应对，是我本身修养不够。其实还有很多更好的处理方式，只是当时的心来不及觉照嗔心已起，就让一贯的习性都跑出来撒野。道理都懂，也很会讲，但就是那么后知后觉，自己不够用心，可想而知。
本来认为自己与佛法渐行渐远，很惭愧，但懂得反省，还有救吧。赶紧忆念三宝：要学习佛陀的智慧与慈悲，要在生活中与法相应，要感恩帮助我提升的善知识。也不一定得先知先觉，但求正知正觉。对生我养我的妈妈，是不必讲什么道理的。道理，也不是说说就罢。
Monday, August 4, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
收拾。有感。
今天可以洗头了。洗头前把家里稍微大扫除一番。干干净净。还记得以前在家抹地有很多地方可抹，现在多数地方都被东西、橱、杂物住了，所以很快就拖完地。想整理却不知如何下手，因为实在很乱。妈妈不舍得丢东西。不用的东西放橱里，常用的东西放外面。看到那么多东西时心里嘴里会嘀咕几句。家里最主要是住得舒服嘛。可是妈妈说那样很舒服，反而我把她的东西‘藏’起来找不到更烦恼。
前几天在星洲副刊看到一篇东西，大意是当你看到家里开始乱了，煮的菜开始软软的，父母开始不喜欢出门了... 是时候轮到我们给他们全心全意的照顾，就好像在襁褓中所得到的照顾一样。半年前回家时看到妈妈中午放学后打包回来。妈妈说她没力每天煮午餐了，因为回到家就很累。当时感觉看起来还很年轻的妈妈原来也开始老了，心中有一下下沧桑的感觉。
其实我不算是很听话的孩子，因为当我觉得他们讲话没道理时还是会反驳的。可能不是他们讲话没道理，而是“我觉得”他们讲话没道理。妈妈讲话比较大声，有时跟她说话会不自觉大声少少。呆在家有父母作伴时，就觉得是理所当然的。在外头打电话回家就肉麻得紧。
无论如何，在我心目中，你们是最重要的。有时说话伤害了你们，对不起。
对家人，别以为不必客气。人的心，玻璃心。每一段感情，都需要小心呵护。
前几天在星洲副刊看到一篇东西，大意是当你看到家里开始乱了，煮的菜开始软软的，父母开始不喜欢出门了... 是时候轮到我们给他们全心全意的照顾，就好像在襁褓中所得到的照顾一样。半年前回家时看到妈妈中午放学后打包回来。妈妈说她没力每天煮午餐了，因为回到家就很累。当时感觉看起来还很年轻的妈妈原来也开始老了，心中有一下下沧桑的感觉。
其实我不算是很听话的孩子，因为当我觉得他们讲话没道理时还是会反驳的。可能不是他们讲话没道理，而是“我觉得”他们讲话没道理。妈妈讲话比较大声，有时跟她说话会不自觉大声少少。呆在家有父母作伴时，就觉得是理所当然的。在外头打电话回家就肉麻得紧。
无论如何，在我心目中，你们是最重要的。有时说话伤害了你们，对不起。
对家人，别以为不必客气。人的心，玻璃心。每一段感情，都需要小心呵护。
Friday, August 1, 2008
无题
我现在正顶着油油的头，想写写东西。开始注意到近来在部落格都是交待我的去向，除了把到过的地方，做过的事记下来，或许也要想想每一天是怎么过的，在想些什么事，心情是怎么样的吧。
这次回来应该有两个星期呆在家。在家也没做些什么，就找事来做。看看报纸，看看电视，迟迟东西，读读书。还不至于闷得发慌，但长久下去也会受不了吧，无所事事，不事生产的日子。在家的生活规划就搞乱了，想做些有益的事都提不起劲来。躺在沙发上吹冷气，管你累不累，一下子就睡着。真是轻松愉快。迟点拿到信也颓废不了多久吧。
其实看电视也有很多启发性的。看HOUSE到一半，发现很多病名和药名不懂，就生起惭愧心，马上把一堆书搬出来精进。看神机妙算刘伯温又可以学福建话，改天遇到老人家就方便沟通了。看女人我最大又可以学到做女人应有的知识，如何选到适脚的高跟鞋等，不错嘛。最近越来越觉得看连续剧没啥意思，花时间看一班真人做假戏，真真假假，爱恨情仇，你厮我杀，何苦来哉。
还没有练习开车，为此对自己信心不足。我想自己真的是比较手脚不灵活，想当年学游泳也浸了好久。I have problem of taking instructions, brain and limbs coordination. 说出去都会遭人白眼。(我也不想这么不争气的...) 当爸爸叫到要我驾车时，内心会浮现一股恐惧感。哈，还记得有一次我开车载小妹，结果她吓到回家哭。阴影这种东西不懂是不是一个藉口。之前不敢在大众前讲话也怪四年级时演讲到一半忘稿半路走下台。
在热浪岛的第一夜大家关在四号房里聚谈，每个人要回答三个问题。第二个问题我很潇洒地说目前很享受单身生活。单身生活是很不错，可是如果遇到对的人，谈谈恋爱应该也不错吧。通常在家没交际应酬没朋友好找没人关心的时候就会想到这些，或是收到某某结婚成双成对新年姨妈姑姐猛问的时候也会想一下。呵。其实心底下不喜欢心情会受人掌控，不自在的感觉。可以主宰自己的心情生活是很棒的。但若心情不会因他起伏，那还是恋爱吗？所以，随缘吧。既来之则安之，既不来也安之。开心就好。
明天可以洗头了，太好了！
这次回来应该有两个星期呆在家。在家也没做些什么，就找事来做。看看报纸，看看电视，迟迟东西，读读书。还不至于闷得发慌，但长久下去也会受不了吧，无所事事，不事生产的日子。在家的生活规划就搞乱了，想做些有益的事都提不起劲来。躺在沙发上吹冷气，管你累不累，一下子就睡着。真是轻松愉快。迟点拿到信也颓废不了多久吧。
其实看电视也有很多启发性的。看HOUSE到一半，发现很多病名和药名不懂，就生起惭愧心，马上把一堆书搬出来精进。看神机妙算刘伯温又可以学福建话，改天遇到老人家就方便沟通了。看女人我最大又可以学到做女人应有的知识，如何选到适脚的高跟鞋等，不错嘛。最近越来越觉得看连续剧没啥意思，花时间看一班真人做假戏，真真假假，爱恨情仇，你厮我杀，何苦来哉。
还没有练习开车，为此对自己信心不足。我想自己真的是比较手脚不灵活，想当年学游泳也浸了好久。I have problem of taking instructions, brain and limbs coordination. 说出去都会遭人白眼。(我也不想这么不争气的...) 当爸爸叫到要我驾车时，内心会浮现一股恐惧感。哈，还记得有一次我开车载小妹，结果她吓到回家哭。阴影这种东西不懂是不是一个藉口。之前不敢在大众前讲话也怪四年级时演讲到一半忘稿半路走下台。
在热浪岛的第一夜大家关在四号房里聚谈，每个人要回答三个问题。第二个问题我很潇洒地说目前很享受单身生活。单身生活是很不错，可是如果遇到对的人，谈谈恋爱应该也不错吧。通常在家没交际应酬没朋友好找没人关心的时候就会想到这些，或是收到某某结婚成双成对新年姨妈姑姐猛问的时候也会想一下。呵。其实心底下不喜欢心情会受人掌控，不自在的感觉。可以主宰自己的心情生活是很棒的。但若心情不会因他起伏，那还是恋爱吗？所以，随缘吧。既来之则安之，既不来也安之。开心就好。
明天可以洗头了，太好了！
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Kelantan. Redang.
To equip myself better and to get use to hospital pharmacy practice, i went to Kelantan HUSM with coursemates (Sheh Ki, Yin Ying, Xin Yun, Kok Eng, Chee Hau), with the hope to learn more as HUSM is a teaching hospital. Before going there, i already receive info that the motel room we'll be living is pityfully small, and small keong there are very healthy and macho. 10 hours of bus, started a series of clerkships: Therapeutic Drug Monitoring Unit, Pharmacy Satellite Unit, Drug Information Unit, Outpatient Pharmacy Unit, Aseptic Dispensing Unit (included Total Parenteral Nutrition, Intravenous Admixture and Cytotoxic Drug Reconstitution). No clinical ward pharmacist as there are too few pharmacists in HUSM, except in ICU.
Orang Kelantan is indeed kind and friendly, and speaks a unique bahasa kelantan (different pronunciation from conventional BM e.g. make for makan, pahem for faham etc.) Relax. Slow tempo, maybe not so crowded as general hospital. Not much entertainment and going places at Kota Bharu, no karaoke, no clubbing, no cinema (except one that seperates male and female audience with family in between). We went to Wat Photivihan which has the largest sleeping buddha statue in South East Asia and Pantai Cahaya Bulan.
I ended my clerkship earlier and head off to Redang, with PPB friends... 17 of us. All of them, except me already start working as they graduated a year ago. I won't forget the room no.4 chat, long table dinner, snorkeling together, SSing in cafe... Though we do not join each other's life so often, but there are no gap between us, still have the same goal in life... seeing u guys, spending memories together, is worthy.. The island, only a word to describe, wonderful... 美到...漂亮到...可爱到... the postcards became real breathtaking scene... Took a flight back to KL... Can hardly imagine we are flying at 800 km/j while the plane seems static in the sky... 7 hours of bus ride=45 min of air flight... This is the first time for 6 of us, and we nearly lost in KLIA. (乡下佬出城记)
Today is the second day i reach home, juz finish straightening my hair the fourth time... looks like 埃及妖后abit.. ha...
Four everyone's information, 14 Aug evening is my convo... if u happen to pass by USM dat time, pay me a visit ya... To all my coursemates and friends, in USM and otherU... HAPPY CONVOCATION!! ^_^
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Alokarama, Light of Wisdom
Just back from 5 days of Alokarama Youth Camp. First time going to Alokarama Retreat Center at Asahan. We are guided by Venerable Mahinda and Sister Sumaggala, and Mr and Mrs Lim, as our parents in this camp, cook meals for us... Sadhu to them... (Sadhu=excellence)
Every morning we will do chanting at the shrine hall and meditate at stupa (pagoda that houses Buddha's relics, 舍利塔). The stupa is situated on top of a mount, with spiral-like walking path all the way to the top. In the dark we walk all the way up, with concentration on the steps we are taking. After a short meditation, sun ray approaches us when we lift up our eyelids. Breathtaking scene catch my eyes and peace my minds..
We are given many talks and exposure to the natural way of living. We learned various kinds of herbs and its usage there, and try to harvest some of them for a meal. We prepared ulam rice, but i can't have it nicely with my face turn red and tears running out.. hav to practise more in accepting spicy food coz though i can't tolerate it, i LOVE it.
In one of the talk "In time of challenge, are you really prepared? Be ALERT", given by Aloka Emergency Readiness Team (ALERT), we learned to keep an eye on the possibilities of facing natural disasters such as flood and tsunami in coming years and be prepared in physical fitness, psychological and spiritually. Although Malaysia is quite a safe zone for natural disaster, but as the result of global warming and change of earth plate patterns from earthquakes, we can see places other than flood zone being flooded, feel the shakes and tremors from neighbouring countries etc. I don't know much about the details, but this talk taught me to be prepare while we are in comfort (Hope for the best, Do what you can, Prepare for the worse). We are advised to prepare a emergency bag with food, drinks and surviving kits which can sustain our live in case of awaiting rescuing. We also have to be prepare for case of fire emergencies at home. After that we are separated in few groups to make our water filter by using natural material, but all groups failed to turn a dirty soil water to crystal clear water. Inform me if u are interested in knowing what to be included in a emergency bag etc.
From the talks given by Bhante, the most i learned is to not just learn the dhamma, but to practice it diligently, to be mindful in my bodily actions, speech and thought. This is the first time i go to Alokarama, and i'm looking forward the subsequent visit... For my kalyana mitras who wish to visit places that Buddha being born, gain enlightenment, giving the first discourse (4 Noble Truths) and ceased (maha-parinibbana), Aloka Foundation is organising trips to these holy places in this few years, around 2 weeks, in Nov.
Aloka's website: http://www.alokafoundation.org/
Every morning we will do chanting at the shrine hall and meditate at stupa (pagoda that houses Buddha's relics, 舍利塔). The stupa is situated on top of a mount, with spiral-like walking path all the way to the top. In the dark we walk all the way up, with concentration on the steps we are taking. After a short meditation, sun ray approaches us when we lift up our eyelids. Breathtaking scene catch my eyes and peace my minds..
We are given many talks and exposure to the natural way of living. We learned various kinds of herbs and its usage there, and try to harvest some of them for a meal. We prepared ulam rice, but i can't have it nicely with my face turn red and tears running out.. hav to practise more in accepting spicy food coz though i can't tolerate it, i LOVE it.
In one of the talk "In time of challenge, are you really prepared? Be ALERT", given by Aloka Emergency Readiness Team (ALERT), we learned to keep an eye on the possibilities of facing natural disasters such as flood and tsunami in coming years and be prepared in physical fitness, psychological and spiritually. Although Malaysia is quite a safe zone for natural disaster, but as the result of global warming and change of earth plate patterns from earthquakes, we can see places other than flood zone being flooded, feel the shakes and tremors from neighbouring countries etc. I don't know much about the details, but this talk taught me to be prepare while we are in comfort (Hope for the best, Do what you can, Prepare for the worse). We are advised to prepare a emergency bag with food, drinks and surviving kits which can sustain our live in case of awaiting rescuing. We also have to be prepare for case of fire emergencies at home. After that we are separated in few groups to make our water filter by using natural material, but all groups failed to turn a dirty soil water to crystal clear water. Inform me if u are interested in knowing what to be included in a emergency bag etc.
From the talks given by Bhante, the most i learned is to not just learn the dhamma, but to practice it diligently, to be mindful in my bodily actions, speech and thought. This is the first time i go to Alokarama, and i'm looking forward the subsequent visit... For my kalyana mitras who wish to visit places that Buddha being born, gain enlightenment, giving the first discourse (4 Noble Truths) and ceased (maha-parinibbana), Aloka Foundation is organising trips to these holy places in this few years, around 2 weeks, in Nov.
Aloka's website: http://www.alokafoundation.org/
你和佛陀之间只隔着一条线
这是在《星洲日报》介绍过的一本书，前几天在大众书局看到。
最主要告诉我们的是，学佛不是什么都不要，而是在拥有的时候，以平常心看待。“只要我们懂得不执著的去感谢一切，所有的过程和体验都是美好的。为何我们要去执著或强求这种甜蜜和感动，要永远不变地重复出现？”作者是想厘清许多学佛者的盲点，不只是拘于形式教条，而是以更明觉的心，全然接受生活中的每一个当下。
值得一读。
最主要告诉我们的是，学佛不是什么都不要，而是在拥有的时候，以平常心看待。“只要我们懂得不执著的去感谢一切，所有的过程和体验都是美好的。为何我们要去执著或强求这种甜蜜和感动，要永远不变地重复出现？”作者是想厘清许多学佛者的盲点，不只是拘于形式教条，而是以更明觉的心，全然接受生活中的每一个当下。
值得一读。
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
And Now...
Thanx to xiao zhang, i hav another dhamma camp to join next week, at Alokalama Retreat Centre, situated near Tangkak. (though it is inside Tampin district, my hometown!!)... Can hardly miss the camp coz it may be the place i will always drop in after start working at malacca. The search for places to continue learning dhamma and get along with Kalyana Mitra (spiritual friends).. Miss them all ever since i left penang... The decision is quite hard, coz i have to give up the first week of practical at HUSM, no pain, no gain.
3 days ago I made a decision to do something that will help me to gain more flexibility in life later, so I can join whatever camps or programs I want to.. To ensure that I never stray away from the right path in life... Thanx to my 4 years uni life that nurtures, equips and cultivates me to understand myself better and become more contented in life... Ha... not wasting the four precious years... coz sometimes feel that I'm really.. OLD already... marching to 24. Am I still the same like past?? Maybe have to be more responsible in life, ain't a student to make stupid decisions and mistakes anymore. To be responsible to myself, my parents, my younger siblings, my beloved friends, my future counterparts and patients.
At home... really really enjoy... sweet sweet time... Please, please, please, allow me to stay near to my hometown... please...
3 days ago I made a decision to do something that will help me to gain more flexibility in life later, so I can join whatever camps or programs I want to.. To ensure that I never stray away from the right path in life... Thanx to my 4 years uni life that nurtures, equips and cultivates me to understand myself better and become more contented in life... Ha... not wasting the four precious years... coz sometimes feel that I'm really.. OLD already... marching to 24. Am I still the same like past?? Maybe have to be more responsible in life, ain't a student to make stupid decisions and mistakes anymore. To be responsible to myself, my parents, my younger siblings, my beloved friends, my future counterparts and patients.
At home... really really enjoy... sweet sweet time... Please, please, please, allow me to stay near to my hometown... please...
Sunday, June 15, 2008
花
他在为工作埋头忙碌过冬季后，终于获得了两个礼拜的假期。他老早计划好要利用这个机会到一个风景佳丽的观光胜地去，泡泡音乐厅、交些朋友、喝些好酒，随心所欲地休息一番。
临行前一天下班回家，他十分兴奋地整理行装，把大小箱子放进轿车的车厢里。第二天早上出发前，他拨个电话给母亲，告诉她去度假的主意。她说：“你会不会顺路经过我这里，我想看看你，和你聊聊天，我们很久没有团聚了。”
“妈，我也想去看你，可是我有点赶，与人约好见面的时间。”他说。
“那就算了。你好好地去玩吧，我会惦记着你。”
当他开车正要上高速公路时突然想起今天是母亲的生日。于是他绕回一段路停在一间花店门前，打算买些鲜花。
店里有个小男孩正买好一把玫瑰，在付账时，小男孩面有愁容，因为他发现所带的钱不够，少了十块钱。
他问小男孩：“这些花是作什么用的？”
小男孩说：“送给我妈妈，今天是她的生日。”
他拿出十元钞票为小男孩凑足了花钱。小男孩很快乐地说：“谢谢你，先生。”
他说：“没关系，今天也是我母亲的生日。”
他选好一打玫瑰、半打康乃馨和半打黄菊花；付了钱，写下他母亲的地址，然后发动车，继续上路。
仅仅开出一小段路，转过一个小山坡时，他看见刚才那个小男孩，跪在一个小墓碑前，把玫瑰花摊在碑上。小男孩也看见他，挥手说：“先生，我妈妈喜欢我给她的花。谢谢你，先生。”
他开回花店，找回老板，问道：“刚才那两打花是不是已经送走了？”
老板摇头说：“还没有。”
“不用麻烦你了，”他说：“我自己去送。”
亲情是我们在世上感受到的第一份爱。
如果可以，我希望亲情能够陪伴我一生一世，
可是。。。
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
以前有订阅《少年》两年。
最近把它们翻出来看，重温很多，曾经令我感动的文字。
坚持要回家乡工作，希望可以多呆在家人身旁。
曾几何时，想过如果父母离开我了，我真的会很伤心。
趁现在，珍惜。好好珍惜。
父亲节快乐。
临行前一天下班回家，他十分兴奋地整理行装，把大小箱子放进轿车的车厢里。第二天早上出发前，他拨个电话给母亲，告诉她去度假的主意。她说：“你会不会顺路经过我这里，我想看看你，和你聊聊天，我们很久没有团聚了。”
“妈，我也想去看你，可是我有点赶，与人约好见面的时间。”他说。
“那就算了。你好好地去玩吧，我会惦记着你。”
当他开车正要上高速公路时突然想起今天是母亲的生日。于是他绕回一段路停在一间花店门前，打算买些鲜花。
店里有个小男孩正买好一把玫瑰，在付账时，小男孩面有愁容，因为他发现所带的钱不够，少了十块钱。
他问小男孩：“这些花是作什么用的？”
小男孩说：“送给我妈妈，今天是她的生日。”
他拿出十元钞票为小男孩凑足了花钱。小男孩很快乐地说：“谢谢你，先生。”
他说：“没关系，今天也是我母亲的生日。”
他选好一打玫瑰、半打康乃馨和半打黄菊花；付了钱，写下他母亲的地址，然后发动车，继续上路。
仅仅开出一小段路，转过一个小山坡时，他看见刚才那个小男孩，跪在一个小墓碑前，把玫瑰花摊在碑上。小男孩也看见他，挥手说：“先生，我妈妈喜欢我给她的花。谢谢你，先生。”
他开回花店，找回老板，问道：“刚才那两打花是不是已经送走了？”
老板摇头说：“还没有。”
“不用麻烦你了，”他说：“我自己去送。”
亲情是我们在世上感受到的第一份爱。
如果可以，我希望亲情能够陪伴我一生一世，
可是。。。
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
以前有订阅《少年》两年。
最近把它们翻出来看，重温很多，曾经令我感动的文字。
坚持要回家乡工作，希望可以多呆在家人身旁。
曾几何时，想过如果父母离开我了，我真的会很伤心。
趁现在，珍惜。好好珍惜。
父亲节快乐。
笑话
阿妹的实验报告如下：
实验目的：证明蜘蛛用腿听声音。
实验材料：小刀一把、蜘蛛一只、桌一张。
实验过程：
1. 将蜘蛛放在桌上，冲它大吼一声“爬！”
现象：蜘蛛开始爬动。
2. 用小刀将蜘蛛腿全部去掉，冲它大吼一声“爬！”
现象：蜘蛛一动不动。
实验结论：蜘蛛用腿听声音。
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
这是我近期看到最残忍的笑话。
实验目的：证明蜘蛛用腿听声音。
实验材料：小刀一把、蜘蛛一只、桌一张。
实验过程：
1. 将蜘蛛放在桌上，冲它大吼一声“爬！”
现象：蜘蛛开始爬动。
2. 用小刀将蜘蛛腿全部去掉，冲它大吼一声“爬！”
现象：蜘蛛一动不动。
实验结论：蜘蛛用腿听声音。
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
这是我近期看到最残忍的笑话。
Monday, June 9, 2008
My plan
Just back from 4 buddhist camps, contented. Will rest at home for 3 weeks, then go to kelantan HUSM for practical for a month, then go redang with previous PPB friends, then fly back to kl (my first time!)... then wait for convo and posting... then start working as PRP (Provisional Registered Pharmacist)...
Now at home, plan to do revision before start working... to refresh the memories, without going to work with nothing in mind... Also plan to brush up my driving skill... and look for places with dhamma class and activities... to ensure i still walk on this path...
Recieved my result, ha... +0.5... can graduate for sure...
During last camp, approached many seniors for consultation, to get use to the coming working world... There will be many challenges and problems coming forward, so have to learn to be patient, and be a sponge to grap as much as i can. Have to learn to receive critics nicely, to learn from anyone experienced than me... Gambatte!!
Now at home, plan to do revision before start working... to refresh the memories, without going to work with nothing in mind... Also plan to brush up my driving skill... and look for places with dhamma class and activities... to ensure i still walk on this path...
Recieved my result, ha... +0.5... can graduate for sure...
During last camp, approached many seniors for consultation, to get use to the coming working world... There will be many challenges and problems coming forward, so have to learn to be patient, and be a sponge to grap as much as i can. Have to learn to receive critics nicely, to learn from anyone experienced than me... Gambatte!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
告别'试'
闷热的下午，四号风扇只是把热空气推到我身上，让我感觉到有风，而已。
才从十五分钟的午觉醒过来，不想回到《Pharmacotherapy》上，所以眼睁睁地看着天花板发两分钟的呆。
（这时Housemate小胖拿了偷拍我刚才睡“大字型”的照片给我看。删除无效。）
再过两天就是我大学最后一张考试。转眼间，在当了十七年的学生后，我就要告别“只要把书读好”的日子了。接下来就是身份转移的过渡期。
当学生是很轻松的，不需背负任何责任，只要把学生的本分做好，可以在学习的前提下尽量犯错，尽量被提醒，尽量享受无忧无虑，自由自在的日子。当学生是很快乐的，除了让人寝食难安的考试，其余日子都是很很很快乐的。我即将告别这快乐的日子，去承担更重大的责任了。换句话说，我即将告别只是接受恩惠的日子，去给予别人服务了。
（在此要感谢两位当小学教师的父母，从小学就给我打好基础，让我在过后的学习都得心应手，且除了专心学习以外不必烦恼任何事。有时在想，我的责任只是把书读好，如果连这么小事都做不到那就很惭愧了。幸亏一直以来我都没让他们失望，哈。）
这次的考试读得很开心，因为主要不是为了准备考试，而是为将来的工作准备。懂多一些，就能让工作顺利一些，帮助病人多一些。以前考试都是很期待考完试当天可以去Happy Hour，这次呆在家读书也蛮享受的。（不过也安排了考完试的节目。）反正我准备在做工前要“重温旧识”，适逢考试能鞭策我更专心读，何乐不为。
要去做工了，爸妈应该蛮开心吧。离乡背井，家人已经习惯我的不存在，感觉上我离开家很久了。回家时会与他们有“代沟”，因为很久没update近况。所以每次回去都会猛问“最近家里有发生什么事吗？”“你很希望家里有事吗？”哈。
回去计划买一辆车，要学会自己驾车去上班，要学会不要一直死火，要赚钱养家。哈哈，蛮期待的，因为还没有体验到做工的辛苦。可是再辛苦，再被上司骂也要工作，所以，乐观点，神经大条点比较好。
加油！工作的朋友，我要加入你们的行列了！
才从十五分钟的午觉醒过来，不想回到《Pharmacotherapy》上，所以眼睁睁地看着天花板发两分钟的呆。
（这时Housemate小胖拿了偷拍我刚才睡“大字型”的照片给我看。删除无效。）
再过两天就是我大学最后一张考试。转眼间，在当了十七年的学生后，我就要告别“只要把书读好”的日子了。接下来就是身份转移的过渡期。
当学生是很轻松的，不需背负任何责任，只要把学生的本分做好，可以在学习的前提下尽量犯错，尽量被提醒，尽量享受无忧无虑，自由自在的日子。当学生是很快乐的，除了让人寝食难安的考试，其余日子都是很很很快乐的。我即将告别这快乐的日子，去承担更重大的责任了。换句话说，我即将告别只是接受恩惠的日子，去给予别人服务了。
（在此要感谢两位当小学教师的父母，从小学就给我打好基础，让我在过后的学习都得心应手，且除了专心学习以外不必烦恼任何事。有时在想，我的责任只是把书读好，如果连这么小事都做不到那就很惭愧了。幸亏一直以来我都没让他们失望，哈。）
这次的考试读得很开心，因为主要不是为了准备考试，而是为将来的工作准备。懂多一些，就能让工作顺利一些，帮助病人多一些。以前考试都是很期待考完试当天可以去Happy Hour，这次呆在家读书也蛮享受的。（不过也安排了考完试的节目。）反正我准备在做工前要“重温旧识”，适逢考试能鞭策我更专心读，何乐不为。
要去做工了，爸妈应该蛮开心吧。离乡背井，家人已经习惯我的不存在，感觉上我离开家很久了。回家时会与他们有“代沟”，因为很久没update近况。所以每次回去都会猛问“最近家里有发生什么事吗？”“你很希望家里有事吗？”哈。
回去计划买一辆车，要学会自己驾车去上班，要学会不要一直死火，要赚钱养家。哈哈，蛮期待的，因为还没有体验到做工的辛苦。可是再辛苦，再被上司骂也要工作，所以，乐观点，神经大条点比较好。
加油！工作的朋友，我要加入你们的行列了！
Thursday, April 10, 2008
I ♥ Penang Life
I'll miss here badly.
3 weeks to come and i'll leave here.
4 years of wonderful memories...
Miss the place: The 2 dollar shop i always treat myself in, mushroom rice at pekaka, yam rice at bali bali, pharmacy school, DKX and DKY, PPB cubicel, DKU where LG held, BT where DSG is going on, Library PHSI with clean toilet, the roundabout, the beautiful trees and sights, the USM museum, the bustop where i spent much time on, Subaidah and its roti pisang + tosei... further places: Pantai Kerachut, KekLokSi, Bkt Bendera, Komtar, Gurney Hotel (Pharmnite), Bt Feringgi, ThanHsiangSi, Explanet...
Miss the people: All my coursemates, esp those close to me and sit beside me during kuliah, those in my clerkship group where we had much fun and interesting learning, those accompanying me to school. All my housemates in Kalyana Mitra Home and ex-housemates at U Height 97-14-2 and Saujana 6-25. All my friends in PPB, juniors and seniors, esp FW5 and FW7 members... All my friends in Tzu Ching... All my friends i know and met before...
Miss the sound, the view, the life...
So lucky i am to spend part of my life here.
DK: Dewan Kuliah
LG: Lumbini Garden
BT: Bilik Tutorial
DSG: Dhamma Sharing Group
PHSI: Perpustakaan Hamzah Sendut I
USM: Universiti Sains Malaysia... Ha
PPB: Persatuan Pelajar Buddhist
FW: Facilitator Workshop
3 weeks to come and i'll leave here.
4 years of wonderful memories...
Miss the place: The 2 dollar shop i always treat myself in, mushroom rice at pekaka, yam rice at bali bali, pharmacy school, DKX and DKY, PPB cubicel, DKU where LG held, BT where DSG is going on, Library PHSI with clean toilet, the roundabout, the beautiful trees and sights, the USM museum, the bustop where i spent much time on, Subaidah and its roti pisang + tosei... further places: Pantai Kerachut, KekLokSi, Bkt Bendera, Komtar, Gurney Hotel (Pharmnite), Bt Feringgi, ThanHsiangSi, Explanet...
Miss the people: All my coursemates, esp those close to me and sit beside me during kuliah, those in my clerkship group where we had much fun and interesting learning, those accompanying me to school. All my housemates in Kalyana Mitra Home and ex-housemates at U Height 97-14-2 and Saujana 6-25. All my friends in PPB, juniors and seniors, esp FW5 and FW7 members... All my friends in Tzu Ching... All my friends i know and met before...
Miss the sound, the view, the life...
So lucky i am to spend part of my life here.
DK: Dewan Kuliah
LG: Lumbini Garden
BT: Bilik Tutorial
DSG: Dhamma Sharing Group
PHSI: Perpustakaan Hamzah Sendut I
USM: Universiti Sains Malaysia... Ha
PPB: Persatuan Pelajar Buddhist
FW: Facilitator Workshop
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
The Beauty of Journals
From long time before i was exposed to the importance of reading up journals to complete our assignments and build up knowledge, but i always ignore it. Who has the free time to read something so dull and those incomprehendible study design? God has.
Till i pay library a visit today. Since this may be the last time, i linger there for a whole day. Went to "Majalah Kini" session, checking up journals. First, Journal of Photography, cool... interesting pictures and articles... Then try to look for those related to my future career... well, not so interested in those purely black n white... glance through...picked up "American Journal of Health-System Pharmacy", flipped a few pages. Some articles pertaining role of pharmacist and ways to perform clinical interventions caught my eye. I like those stuffs... clarify my future direction and ways to perform better as a pharmacist, optimize our contribution to the healthcare system.
This is the first time i get interested in journals. I miss all the previous issues. Now is the time to leave pharmacy school, and is the time to know more about future prospect. Remember previous 4 years of studying, studying and studying just to pass the exams with...not flying, but at least not crawling colours... Study hard for those possible appearing in exam... others... wait till i have the time... Now i will like to study to serve my future patients better.
Next week is the exam week... the last exam in my life (if not mistaken)...
Gambatte to myself and everyone, esp all my coursemates (for 4 years long)!! \(^o^)/
Till i pay library a visit today. Since this may be the last time, i linger there for a whole day. Went to "Majalah Kini" session, checking up journals. First, Journal of Photography, cool... interesting pictures and articles... Then try to look for those related to my future career... well, not so interested in those purely black n white... glance through...picked up "American Journal of Health-System Pharmacy", flipped a few pages. Some articles pertaining role of pharmacist and ways to perform clinical interventions caught my eye. I like those stuffs... clarify my future direction and ways to perform better as a pharmacist, optimize our contribution to the healthcare system.
This is the first time i get interested in journals. I miss all the previous issues. Now is the time to leave pharmacy school, and is the time to know more about future prospect. Remember previous 4 years of studying, studying and studying just to pass the exams with...not flying, but at least not crawling colours... Study hard for those possible appearing in exam... others... wait till i have the time... Now i will like to study to serve my future patients better.
Next week is the exam week... the last exam in my life (if not mistaken)...
Gambatte to myself and everyone, esp all my coursemates (for 4 years long)!! \(^o^)/
Friday, March 21, 2008
Long time no see...
Just back from a gathering of previous faci workshop members.. enjoyed...
I'm gonna really miss them when i leave penang, soon.
Planning for redang trip at july, hope it will come true.
Everyone seems maintaining the same way of speaking, laughing... still很有亲切感。
And when PPB needs support, everyone giv a helping hand without hesistating much.
That's the spirit of PPB alumni...
Talk much nonsense, but fun, brings everyone together.
Miss you all and i'm looking forward for the next!
I'm gonna really miss them when i leave penang, soon.
Planning for redang trip at july, hope it will come true.
Everyone seems maintaining the same way of speaking, laughing... still很有亲切感。
And when PPB needs support, everyone giv a helping hand without hesistating much.
That's the spirit of PPB alumni...
Talk much nonsense, but fun, brings everyone together.
Miss you all and i'm looking forward for the next!
Saturday, March 15, 2008
You Raise Me Up
Lyric: Grah Am, Brend An Composer: Lovland, Rolf
When I am down and all my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still await here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
~~~~~~
This song, reminds me…
When you facing difficulties and unhappiness,
How do you get through it? Who do you think of?
From an innocent don’t-know-all to more matured thinking,
Many people and things around contributed to this.
Thank you all. I will keep growing.
When I am down and all my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still await here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
~~~~~~
This song, reminds me…
When you facing difficulties and unhappiness,
How do you get through it? Who do you think of?
From an innocent don’t-know-all to more matured thinking,
Many people and things around contributed to this.
Thank you all. I will keep growing.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Consider a free week...
Yesterday finished the interview by SPA and KKM, signaling the first step into the working world in government hospital. The interview session is not scary or heart-pumping as i thought, i didn't get nervous in the whole process, except when knowing that other counterparts prepared it for a few days while i have only a few hours left to go. Luckily my poor preparation do not affect the performance much. As a reminder from a friend, we are not to take granted that we'll sure pass the interview easily, but to know better about our future job environment and policies.
I lost the important key in my life, the one hanging on my necklace since 21th yrs old, given by my beloved family members, before attending my grandma's funeral. Despite its value of platinum, the key means a lot to me. It symbolized my family that will always be with me whenever i go, whatever i do. Now i'll have them in heart.
I lost the important key in my life, the one hanging on my necklace since 21th yrs old, given by my beloved family members, before attending my grandma's funeral. Despite its value of platinum, the key means a lot to me. It symbolized my family that will always be with me whenever i go, whatever i do. Now i'll have them in heart.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Goodbye
On the way back from a gathering at midnite, i received the news that grandma passed away, despite the latest news that her condition was stabilized. Had prepare for the worse but don't know that it was so fast. After the call don't feel terribly upset as i expected (felt abit rare too).
Finally burst out tears on the bus brought me from penang to home the next day, after listening to Jay 青花瓷~炊烟袅袅升起 隔江千万里...I'm quite closed to my grandma, seeing her every week when i was in hometown. Although not fully understand what she talks, i can feel that she is very happy to see us.
Seeing her in the coffin. Apparently losing weight and size after a series of surgeries. She must be suffered before going.
I don't feel very sad actually, juz regretted that she didn't enjoy much when alive. Didn't have the chance to go travelling coz walking difficulty. One of my aunt cried and regretted that her plan to celebrate grandma's birthday never come true. Many family members and relatives came to pay salute in the funeral, and the ceremony is quite grand, everyone was here. It will be more meaningful if everyone gathers here like now when she is still alive, actually. All sorts of car, cash, condominium, maid, radio burned for her is not needed if she is not reborn as ghost. The long and complicated ceremony done is more for comforting the remaining, to make us feel better.
I still have many things to tell grandma, many things to share with her. But hope i've tried my best to sayang her before this. Hope that she gets to a well place, reborn in a good family, be happy.
Appreciate those beside you, esp family, when they are still beside you.
Finally burst out tears on the bus brought me from penang to home the next day, after listening to Jay 青花瓷~炊烟袅袅升起 隔江千万里...I'm quite closed to my grandma, seeing her every week when i was in hometown. Although not fully understand what she talks, i can feel that she is very happy to see us.
Seeing her in the coffin. Apparently losing weight and size after a series of surgeries. She must be suffered before going.
I don't feel very sad actually, juz regretted that she didn't enjoy much when alive. Didn't have the chance to go travelling coz walking difficulty. One of my aunt cried and regretted that her plan to celebrate grandma's birthday never come true. Many family members and relatives came to pay salute in the funeral, and the ceremony is quite grand, everyone was here. It will be more meaningful if everyone gathers here like now when she is still alive, actually. All sorts of car, cash, condominium, maid, radio burned for her is not needed if she is not reborn as ghost. The long and complicated ceremony done is more for comforting the remaining, to make us feel better.
I still have many things to tell grandma, many things to share with her. But hope i've tried my best to sayang her before this. Hope that she gets to a well place, reborn in a good family, be happy.
Appreciate those beside you, esp family, when they are still beside you.
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