告别'试'

闷热的下午，四号风扇只是把热空气推到我身上，让我感觉到有风，而已。
才从十五分钟的午觉醒过来，不想回到《Pharmacotherapy》上，所以眼睁睁地看着天花板发两分钟的呆。
（这时Housemate小胖拿了偷拍我刚才睡“大字型”的照片给我看。删除无效。）

再过两天就是我大学最后一张考试。转眼间，在当了十七年的学生后，我就要告别“只要把书读好”的日子了。接下来就是身份转移的过渡期。

当学生是很轻松的，不需背负任何责任，只要把学生的本分做好，可以在学习的前提下尽量犯错，尽量被提醒，尽量享受无忧无虑，自由自在的日子。当学生是很快乐的，除了让人寝食难安的考试，其余日子都是很很很快乐的。我即将告别这快乐的日子，去承担更重大的责任了。换句话说，我即将告别只是接受恩惠的日子，去给予别人服务了。

（在此要感谢两位当小学教师的父母，从小学就给我打好基础，让我在过后的学习都得心应手，且除了专心学习以外不必烦恼任何事。有时在想，我的责任只是把书读好，如果连这么小事都做不到那就很惭愧了。幸亏一直以来我都没让他们失望，哈。）

这次的考试读得很开心，因为主要不是为了准备考试，而是为将来的工作准备。懂多一些，就能让工作顺利一些，帮助病人多一些。以前考试都是很期待考完试当天可以去Happy Hour，这次呆在家读书也蛮享受的。（不过也安排了考完试的节目。）反正我准备在做工前要“重温旧识”，适逢考试能鞭策我更专心读，何乐不为。
要去做工了，爸妈应该蛮开心吧。离乡背井，家人已经习惯我的不存在，感觉上我离开家很久了。回家时会与他们有“代沟”，因为很久没update近况。所以每次回去都会猛问“最近家里有发生什么事吗？”“你很希望家里有事吗？”哈。

回去计划买一辆车，要学会自己驾车去上班，要学会不要一直死火，要赚钱养家。哈哈，蛮期待的，因为还没有体验到做工的辛苦。可是再辛苦，再被上司骂也要工作，所以，乐观点，神经大条点比较好。
加油！工作的朋友，我要加入你们的行列了！

The Beauty of Journals

From long time before i was exposed to the importance of reading up journals to complete our assignments and build up knowledge, but i always ignore it. Who has the free time to read something so dull and those incomprehendible study design? God has.

Till i pay library a visit today. Since this may be the last time, i linger there for a whole day. Went to "Majalah Kini" session, checking up journals. First, Journal of Photography, cool... interesting pictures and articles... Then try to look for those related to my future career... well, not so interested in those purely black n white... glance through...picked up "American Journal of Health-System Pharmacy", flipped a few pages. Some articles pertaining role of pharmacist and ways to perform clinical interventions caught my eye. I like those stuffs... clarify my future direction and ways to perform better as a pharmacist, optimize our contribution to the healthcare system.

This is the first time i get interested in journals. I miss all the previous issues. Now is the time to leave pharmacy school, and is the time to know more about future prospect. Remember previous 4 years of studying, studying and studying just to pass the exams with...not flying, but at least not crawling colours... Study hard for those possible appearing in exam... others... wait till i have the time... Now i will like to study to serve my future patients better.

Next week is the exam week... the last exam in my life (if not mistaken)...

Gambatte to myself and everyone, esp all my coursemates (for 4 years long)!! \(^o^)/

Living and Studying...

Seldom have free free time for myself, tend to fill in the gaps completely... esp when rushing... abandoned many good habits i tried to nurture since last sem: a brief sitting (just sitting n relax, without doing or thinking other things, a short meditation) after waking, then hav a few pages of book to fill in my mind, while havin a sip of hot drink in the meantime. i like to advice others to sleep early, wake up early, healthy habit bla bla bla... but nowadays i tend to sleep late, can't wake up early the next day as planned. A bit running out of my ideal life. Nothing put me into that, i let myself to be like this... so, blame no one and try do something. Do u wan yo life to carry on like this?

Apart from that, my life is still organized, contented juz as before. My wonderful university life is about to reach an end. Next Monday will be my last kuliah in school... After that, no more. I'm not going to be happy about this. Since young we hate school, class, homeworks, but now felt that being spoonfeed by somebody else is a privilege. Soon some ppl'll goin to knock on my head or make my easy life become uneasy... esp with my underqualified qualification. I'M GONNA WORK HARD ON THIS!

From my primary, secondary, tertiary school up to 3rd yr in university i study for the sake of studying. Since when, i started to study for my future profession. The more i know, the better i serve the patients, the more i can contribute. So, now i actually enjoy study very much. It's a pleasure having time to equip myself more, out of stress, for now.

Oath of a Pharmacist

At this time, I vow to devote my professional life to the service of all humankind through the profession of pharmacy.

I will consider the welfare of humanity and relief of human suffering my primary concerns.
I will apply my knowledge, experience, and skills to the best of my ability to assure optimal drug therapy outcomes for the patients I serve.
I will keep abreast of developments and maintain professional competency in my profession of pharmacy.

I will maintain the highest principles of moral, ethical, and legal conduct.

I will embrace and advocate change in the profession of pharmacy that improves patient care.
I take these vows voluntarily with the full realization of the responsibility with which I am entrusted by the public.

又是毕业的季节...

别急，明年就到我咯...

之前觉得毕业典礼嘛，没什么大不了的，每年几万人在毕业。

最近赶场送了很多同年的朋友，大家各散东西，也可能是最后一次见面了。

见到好久不见的同乡朋友，竟然是在毕业临别才有机会说说话。

突然有点期待自己的毕业典礼。

虽然每个人都在毕业，也没什么好光荣的，但对本身来说，是为四年大学生涯画上一个正式的句号，也是人生的一个转捩点。

毕业了的朋友，好好加油吧！

为了可以明年顺利毕业，我也要加油。

Study week = Study only??

这个sem有拿一张Management paper: Organizational Behavior,
读读下发现我是典型的Type A person。

Type A Characteristics:

1. Hurried speech, walk, move, eat.
2. Constantly impatience with events eg. traffic jam, slow acting person.
3. Always thinking of doing 2 or more things at once.
4. Tendency to turn conversations around to meaningful subjects or themes.
5. Tendency to interrupt while others are speaking.
6. Guilt feelings during periods of relaxation or leisure time.
7. Tendency to be oblivious to surroundings during daily activities.
8. Greater concern for things worth having than with things worth being.
9. Tendency to schedule more and more in less and less time, a chronic sense of time urgency.
10. Development of nervous tics or characteristic gestures.
11. Belief that success is due to the ability to get things done faster than the other person.
12. Tendency to view and evaluate personal activities and the activities of other person in terms of number.

还记得以前1st yr没参加活动，每天只需要读书，生活是很悠闲的，成绩也不错。
然后，我的成绩就没进步过。

现在的生活比较充实，为免影响课业，就每天都很赶，没有了可以无所事事的时间。空闲时间如果没有拿来读书就会有罪恶感。安排好时间要怎么用，很多schedule（短时间要读完certain notes)，若临时有变故就会马上变脸。觉得自己一直追时间，变得很不flexible。

前两天和housemate去吃dipper，走出来才发现毛毛雨兼没带雨伞，就很紧张会下雨不能准时回去读书。然后吃得也很不安乐，一直望着天祈祷别下雨。

之前花整个早上的时间自弹自唱边录音然后烧成cd syok sendiri，过后很有罪恶感，怕如果真的读不完书会后悔当天把时间浪费在不相干的事。过后就一直鞭策自己要专心，补回我浪费掉的时间。

我怎么会变成这样？唉... 不过我想等考试后就会恢复正常吧。

"......A meta-analysis of 99 studies revealed that Type A individuals had higher heart rates and blood pressure than Type B people......" that means easily to get heart attack.

Dis sem result…

成绩出了，跟上个sem一样，也与意料中差不多一样。

SPOKEN ENGLISH B+
PHARMACEUTICAL ANALYSIS I A-
DOSAGE FORM DESIGN I B+
RESPIRATORY SYSTEM, KIDNEY, BLOOD AND THERAPY B+
CARDIOVASCULAR SYSTEM AND THERAPY B-
PHARMACY PRACTICE B
COSMETIC AND TOILETRIES B+

TOTAL UNITS : 20
SEMGRADE : 3.23

唯一感到纳闷的是，sistem kardiovaskular是我做到最有信心的一张，竟然拿最差。有点意外。
只在study week准备，算是gam siong ha la…

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那时知道三天考四张重科，心里冒出的声音是：哇，惨了～
可是还是一样要在study week时准备，到考试时只是稍微扫过一轮。
那时也只是接受现实，乖乖读书，没想那么多，毕竟有百多个系友和你一起捱，不是你孤军作战。
考试真的那么重要吗？对我来说它的存在是要激励我们复习整个sem所学的东西。只要你有去读，去了解，去明白，记一些你认为重要的东西，作为将来就业的基础，就够了，考试只是一个形式来验收。考得好需要勤劳＋聪明＋运气。成绩和所付出的努力不一定成正比。
所以，每一次考试都跟自己说：不要感到压力，只要你准备好了，该读的都读了，考试时就算很赶，不太会做我也无悔，至少我尽力了。
可能我对自己要求没那么高吧，不会像以前一样高。进了大学觉得除了学业还有其他有意义的事等着我去尝试，不需要把全幅精神放在学业上。当然，也不能忽略。
往往很多事是我们不能控制的，当然，这次考试我们或许能作出一些改变，但，不是每个人认为需要。
境由心转，而不是心由境转。

大学最难熬的一个星期…

又是一年二度的study week，唉…

每逢这个季节是我最想家的时候，（因为平时没时间想）

4/5 的housemates都回了，家里很冷清…没有家庭温暖。
为什么不索性肥家呢？因为肥家太温暖，读不到书…
我整个sem没温到书了，再不温就要当了。
好彩在这里算是有progress到，
只是…真的很想它快点完，读完该读的快快考完算了，管它会不会做，只要我尽力就好了。
很很很很很很期待考完试肥家去camp，哈…

cosmetic project finale

Our group topic is rouge(腮红), other groups are doing lipstick, shampoo and deodorant...
We need to produce powder rouge n cream rouge... n in the 2nd practical we formulate cream rouge from commercial lipstick... (coz the colour available in lab is limited n... not nice at all..) juz simply melt the lipstick to form colour base...

After producing we need to do assignment, discussion, packaging...

But actually i didnt menyumbang to the packaging part... coz my fren done it a nite before... seeing the artwork done can know how they put time, creativity n effort in it... they enjoy the process... n i felt like missin something coz of lack contribution to dis project... (but actually i'm not really upset coz i save time...haha)... luckily to have good teammates ^_^ thanx ya...

我毕业了！

就想！不过这一件真的是药剂系的毕业jubah，粉红色stripe的。
拍摄地点在我家门口。
熊熊是…
是不是很像咧…

Website for dummies

Lecturer给了一个assignment要我们做关于drug info的网站，我开始时真的不知所措，过后勉勉强强赶完了。http://members.lycos.co.uk/drugs4hypertension/。为了这个网站还特地到药店拍照。讲真这真的是很beginner的网站，不过对我来讲蛮有意义。