Long time no see...

Just back from a gathering of previous faci workshop members.. enjoyed...

I'm gonna really miss them when i leave penang, soon.
Planning for redang trip at july, hope it will come true.
Everyone seems maintaining the same way of speaking, laughing... still很有亲切感。
And when PPB needs support, everyone giv a helping hand without hesistating much.
That's the spirit of PPB alumni...
Talk much nonsense, but fun, brings everyone together.
Miss you all and i'm looking forward for the next!

我的空间

最近在My Space开始用英文写东西。用英文的好处是，不用费心去推敲词句，就用26个字母组成我现在的想法，比较freestyle。华文对我是个很直接且熟悉的语文，在打字较慢的情况下酌量字词的适合度，让文句工整优美些。

无论如何，还是有一些心里的话比较能用母语表达。

You Raise Me Up

Lyric: Grah Am, Brend An Composer: Lovland, Rolf

When I am down and all my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still await here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be

~~~~~~
This song, reminds me…
When you facing difficulties and unhappiness,
How do you get through it? Who do you think of?
From an innocent don’t-know-all to more matured thinking,
Many people and things around contributed to this.
Thank you all. I will keep growing.

Consider a free week...

Yesterday finished the interview by SPA and KKM, signaling the first step into the working world in government hospital. The interview session is not scary or heart-pumping as i thought, i didn't get nervous in the whole process, except when knowing that other counterparts prepared it for a few days while i have only a few hours left to go. Luckily my poor preparation do not affect the performance much. As a reminder from a friend, we are not to take granted that we'll sure pass the interview easily, but to know better about our future job environment and policies.


I lost the important key in my life, the one hanging on my necklace since 21th yrs old, given by my beloved family members, before attending my grandma's funeral. Despite its value of platinum, the key means a lot to me. It symbolized my family that will always be with me whenever i go, whatever i do. Now i'll have them in heart.

Goodbye

On the way back from a gathering at midnite, i received the news that grandma passed away, despite the latest news that her condition was stabilized. Had prepare for the worse but don't know that it was so fast. After the call don't feel terribly upset as i expected (felt abit rare too).


Finally burst out tears on the bus brought me from penang to home the next day, after listening to Jay 青花瓷~炊烟袅袅升起 隔江千万里...I'm quite closed to my grandma, seeing her every week when i was in hometown. Although not fully understand what she talks, i can feel that she is very happy to see us.

Seeing her in the coffin. Apparently losing weight and size after a series of surgeries. She must be suffered before going.

I don't feel very sad actually, juz regretted that she didn't enjoy much when alive. Didn't have the chance to go travelling coz walking difficulty. One of my aunt cried and regretted that her plan to celebrate grandma's birthday never come true. Many family members and relatives came to pay salute in the funeral, and the ceremony is quite grand, everyone was here. It will be more meaningful if everyone gathers here like now when she is still alive, actually. All sorts of car, cash, condominium, maid, radio burned for her is not needed if she is not reborn as ghost. The long and complicated ceremony done is more for comforting the remaining, to make us feel better.

I still have many things to tell grandma, many things to share with her. But hope i've tried my best to sayang her before this. Hope that she gets to a well place, reborn in a good family, be happy.

Appreciate those beside you, esp family, when they are still beside you.

U'll be ok.

Today feels abit complicated.


My 88 yo grandma went in surgery ward to remove the fecal covering underlying tumor that cause unresolved stomach bloating. Cancer, and she is 88. Success rate 50/50. My parents are in mlk hospital right now. Think of goin back to see her, but my dad discouraged me. "What can u contribute if u r here?" In fact, they will be quite worry each time i travel between penang and home. I don't know that, thought i have nothing to make them worry about, since i can take quite good care of myself. Suddenly feel that i must really make sure nothing bad happens to me, as they will be really sad n depressed. I'll try my best.

While at home i back to grandma's place once a week, with my parents. Each time we will not stay very long. I can't really have effective conversation with her coz i'm not good at speaking her dialect. And she can't really listen clearly to us. Actually if can i really wanna know what she is thinking, how does she feel...

So now abit regret that i didn't spend much time to know her better.. do something to make her happy..

Hope that she will not suffer much pain now, feel better.

And to everyone, esp my family n friends, TAKE GOOD CARE, please.

Living and Studying...

Seldom have free free time for myself, tend to fill in the gaps completely... esp when rushing... abandoned many good habits i tried to nurture since last sem: a brief sitting (just sitting n relax, without doing or thinking other things, a short meditation) after waking, then hav a few pages of book to fill in my mind, while havin a sip of hot drink in the meantime. i like to advice others to sleep early, wake up early, healthy habit bla bla bla... but nowadays i tend to sleep late, can't wake up early the next day as planned. A bit running out of my ideal life. Nothing put me into that, i let myself to be like this... so, blame no one and try do something. Do u wan yo life to carry on like this?

Apart from that, my life is still organized, contented juz as before. My wonderful university life is about to reach an end. Next Monday will be my last kuliah in school... After that, no more. I'm not going to be happy about this. Since young we hate school, class, homeworks, but now felt that being spoonfeed by somebody else is a privilege. Soon some ppl'll goin to knock on my head or make my easy life become uneasy... esp with my underqualified qualification. I'M GONNA WORK HARD ON THIS!

From my primary, secondary, tertiary school up to 3rd yr in university i study for the sake of studying. Since when, i started to study for my future profession. The more i know, the better i serve the patients, the more i can contribute. So, now i actually enjoy study very much. It's a pleasure having time to equip myself more, out of stress, for now.

Oath of a Pharmacist

At this time, I vow to devote my professional life to the service of all humankind through the profession of pharmacy.

I will consider the welfare of humanity and relief of human suffering my primary concerns.
I will apply my knowledge, experience, and skills to the best of my ability to assure optimal drug therapy outcomes for the patients I serve.
I will keep abreast of developments and maintain professional competency in my profession of pharmacy.

I will maintain the highest principles of moral, ethical, and legal conduct.

I will embrace and advocate change in the profession of pharmacy that improves patient care.
I take these vows voluntarily with the full realization of the responsibility with which I am entrusted by the public.

平凡如我

我是一个很很很平凡的人。样貌平凡、身材平凡、家境平凡、性格平凡、生活平凡、一切都很平凡。
身边总会出现一些不平凡的人。报章上更常出现。
读着他人的故事，羡慕他们能发挥与超脱自己。欣赏他们勇于自我挑战。
而我，每天呼吸一样的空气，喝一样的水，只是可能想些不一样的事。

淡淡的，未尝不是一件好事。
只是会期待生活中出现一道 不知源自何处的彩虹。

新年快乐。

You Raise Me Up

Lyric: Grah Am, Brend An Composer: Lovland, Rolf

When I am down and all my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still await here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be



This song, reminds me…
When you facing difficulties and unhappiness,
How do you get through it? Who do you think of?
From an innocent don’t-know-all to more matured thinking,
Many people and things around contributed to this.
Thank you all. I will keep growing.

一朵小花♥

有一次，我们看到杂草里面长出一朵小花，非常可爱。
“很美吧？”
“嗯，可是好小。”
外婆立刻对我说：“在蚂蚁看来，很大呢。”
然后，她表情非常温柔地轻轻抚摸那朵花：
“花店的花都有人施肥，又有人照顾，长得大是自然。这朵花虽然很小，但靠自己的力量努力开出的花，才最美丽。

《佐贺的超级阿嬤》

我是这样的

我是怎样的人？
想法不太会转弯，所以慢几拍。
会先相信朋友的话，会先怀疑陌生人的话。
有时顾虑太多，变成婆妈。
很在意别人的眼光，有时会人前不一。
喜欢关心别人，自己也需要被关心。
是好人的时间比是坏人的时间多。
喜欢让大家发笑，若大家没笑会有点冷。
在不擅长的地方容易信心不足。需要别人的肯定。
看到自己的小进步时会很开心，并能借此肯定自己。
我蛮喜欢，也能接受这样的自己。给我选我要做回我自己。（以前内向时期我想成为其他人〕
我多数时候是快乐的。^_^

你是怎样的人？

最近啊~

好久好久没来这里了，还差点忘了呢。

最近，也是很平淡的心情，很简单地过生活。我的生活是一帆风顺的，不会有什么大风大浪。有时在想，改天若是不顺利了会习惯吗？因为没什么被磨炼过。

到了大四觉得自己越来越想家，也不是想要回家，而是家人，特别是父母，在我心目中原来是那么重要的。有时在坐车时会不自觉想到爸爸就在我身边，默默地，载着我去吃东西。坐下来吃东西也没什么讲话，可是就是那感觉，很好，很幸福。喜欢在爸爸看报纸时注意他的背影，在妈妈睡觉时凝视她的面孔。同样在一个空间里，就会觉得很满足。回到槟城，他们是时时刻刻住在我心中。

之前参与了药剂师宣誓仪式。再多几个月我就是正式的药剂师。以前没有选择医科是不要以后过着很压力的生活，希望可以轻轻松松过下辈子。到头来，成为药剂师好像也没那么轻松。我怕，怕不能表现得很好，怕会害惨病人。自从上个学期成绩大跌后信心大失，知识掌握不够，不能很好地运用。哭也哭过了，只能勉励自己不要忽略自己认为不重要的东西，因为，每一个都是重要的。之前读书方式是选一些自己认为感兴趣的来读，背不起的就轻易放弃。所以虽然也花很多时间在读书，但不能应付考试运用。除了学识，我想，真正想为大众服务的精神是重要的。宣誓内容要我们立志为病人拔苦，把大众的利益放在第一位。我能做到吗？还是只是嘴巴照念？从以前就常对朋友说，读药剂系不是我真正想要的，比较喜欢的是设计等能发挥创意的科系。不过这一刻，突然觉得我选这科是对的，可以为社会尽一点点心力，可以让其他人健康舒服一点，可以让已在苦痛的病人真正享受到用药的疗效，是很有意义的。

最近常有一个比较不同的思维模式，在做每样事情或选择前，问自己为什么要这样做。如果都不知道为什么要做，做来干嘛？譬如：我在赶报告，赶报告的原因只是为了应付教授吗？换一个想学习的心态，感觉就会不同了。这些一直都是很浅显的道理，只是大脑没什么思考的我时常忽略这一点，到头来，尽管是做着有意义的事，但却做得起烦恼。

最近身边的朋友发生很多事，从他们的经历体会到不少，虽然不是亲身经历，但能体会到他们的苦痛，让一切顺利的我也开始思考一些事情。我们不知道是明天先到还是下一世先到，可是还是很随心所欲地挥霍生活。哈。

下星期会去学校的毕业晚会Pharmnite，第一次穿晚装扮美美。期待能拍些美美的照片回来。

Autostereogram

你看到吗？

先斗鸡眼，把视觉弄到朦朦，就会看到了。

或者眼睛贴近荧幕慢慢向后移。

一点点意见

上星期到学校听一个邻国药剂公司Guardian给的讲座，告诉我们那儿的就业机会和一些沟通技巧。主讲人是为了招揽人才而来，她二度询问谁想以后到邻国发展。众所周知，邻国有着浓厚的薪金和发展机会。

之前也是有想过到外国工作，赚更多钱给家人更舒适的生活。可是这次在听讲座的时候，有一种很强烈的感觉告诉我：我要留在马来西亚服务马来西亚人民，把我所学的帮助身边的人。如果我连自己家人邻居的需要都不能兼顾，却是千里迢迢到其他先进国服务，只为了薪水，好像很说不过去。况且马来西亚卫生保健方面比邻国逊色很多，需要这方面的人手。我在这里接受人民的钱完成学业（政府大学学费廉宜），邻国可以什么都不做就能吸引这里的人才过去，算是十分精明又省钱的计划，相比之下也比较会把握人才。

从这件事体会到国家恩、众生恩。以前我第一次接触四重恩时对国家恩是没什么感觉的，因为从小就和爸爸讨论很多政府“应该改进的地方”，到头来，虽然进步的空间还有很多，但这片土地孕育了我，我有责任把这个国家变得更好（希望如此啦）。觉得自己目光好像没那么短浅了，会考虑到更多事情。以前会觉得放弃厚薪转行很不逻辑，经人提醒知道凡事不能只看表面。薪水高，可能自己的时间会少很多。

这篇东西其实是从修持报告里抽出来的，不敢写太明和负面的东西免遭对付，哈哈，想太多。

买了两本微笑 (^_^) (^_^)

买右边那本是因为封面很美，买左边那本是因为LAT是我的偶像。
过后懒洋洋地躺在沙发上消磨时间，人生一大乐趣也。

又是毕业的季节...

别急，明年就到我咯...

之前觉得毕业典礼嘛，没什么大不了的，每年几万人在毕业。

最近赶场送了很多同年的朋友，大家各散东西，也可能是最后一次见面了。

见到好久不见的同乡朋友，竟然是在毕业临别才有机会说说话。

突然有点期待自己的毕业典礼。

虽然每个人都在毕业，也没什么好光荣的，但对本身来说，是为四年大学生涯画上一个正式的句号，也是人生的一个转捩点。

毕业了的朋友，好好加油吧！

为了可以明年顺利毕业，我也要加油。

檀香善友之家，我的家。

猜猜哪个是我？
新家很爽，有沙发、有报纸、有共修力量。

bye bye my holidays

漫长的假期其实短暂。
今天要肥槟城了，希望回到去没那么大雾。（昨天可见度4km)
会想念家里人。在家真的很爽很悠闲。

有好一阵子不会回来写东西了，因为新家没得上网。

神机妙算刘伯温

在家有追看『神机妙算刘伯温』，刘伯温很帅，很有才情，很厚道，哈。

昨天找到一些刘伯温与青梅竹马恋人阿秀诀别生死的片段。伤感。
会羡慕一些神仙眷属，两人有共同的生活方向，能互相扶持关心学习，心心相印。 羡慕阿秀有刘伯温真心相待，然而到最后还是必须带着万分不舍道别。至少在一起走过的日子是很珍惜彼此的。

快乐不是去追求我没有的，而是去珍惜现在拥有的。曾经为一个不爱我的人痛哭流涕，却忽略了身边默默支持我的朋友。想象中的往往是最美好的，但踏实地生活着才是有意义的。

HOUSE

最近迷上HOUSE。
Dr. House是不穿白袍，不按理出牌的医生。
我喜欢看他们medical team一起讨论病人疑难杂症的原因，加以推理、分析。
也听到很多熟悉的药名，顺便温习。
欣赏Dr. House的干脆、俐落、幽默、脑筋、为病人的正义。
或许因为我很不干脆吧，就好象我（运动白痴）很欣赏运动员一样。